2016.12.31-2017.01.02 Day 1-3 Week 1 It took two full days to arrive in Florence. I traveled from Merida to Miami, spent the evening with old friends in Naples and then flew overnight on January 1 from Miami to Rome to Florence. I arrived in Florence on the evening of January 2.
2017.01.03 Day 4 Week 1 My first day in Florence (day 3 of my journey) was spent walking; learning 

2017.01.04 Day 5 Week 1 My second full day in Florence was pretty routine. I began the day searching for a shop called Coltelleria Galli which is supposedly the best knife shop in Florence. Sadly 

2017.01.05 Day 6 Week 1 On my way to my errands this morning I watched a dazzling sun-play on the east facing side of the city along the Arno River. Today was spent getting the paperwork done of for my residential permit from the police. My interview will be Saturday and I will receive the permanent card in March. One nice thing is that I will not have to renew the visa—only the residence permit. That means if I stay another year I will not have to get a replacement visa. After finishing that work, I applied for my permanent card at the National Library of Florence (Biblioteca Nazionale Centrale Firenze.) The card does not expire. The main Salle Lettura has 120 seats that are arranged in 2 rows of 6 tables with ten 

The age old question: aloneness or solitude. Being a devotee of Rainer Maria Rilke I like the notion of solitude. I don’t feel “alone” in that I have so many wonderful ghosts to keep me occupied mentally. I conjure up Dante as I stroll the city. I talk with Filippo Brunelleschi as I gaze on his handiwork. I address Leon Battista Alberti as I study the geometric patterning on the façade Basilica of Santa Maria Novella. Of course Savonarola’s feistiness is always present in that I too hate the entrenched oligarchies of the world—but I don’t wish upon myself his fate. I remember on a previous visit seeing his tiny marginalia in his bible where he found scriptual justifications for his renouncing of the power structure of the Catholic church. And one can not forget the ever vigilant intellectual Galielo Galilei who was held in house arrest for heresy only 10 minutes to the west of where I am writing now.
What does it mean to be alone but not alone. It takes an awareness of what keeps us from wandering before aloneness can set in. Focus and attention are, for me, more than compensating for being away from my lovely wife. As I sat in the reading hall, I asked myself “Why am I here? Why did I choose to be away for a year?” One of the many reasons relates to restlessness. Being free of “obligations” is something I have dreamt of since I first starting working at the age of 14. For 54 years I have “had” to work and provide for others and myself. It is not something that I resent. I am proud of what I was able to do with my meager talents. But for the first time since I was 14, I am working now for me. I am not obligated to be somewhere at a particular time. I do not have to listen carefully and provide clients with what they want. I am in the light—free of second guessing those that depend on me. I also am aware that my absence is good for Lea as well. She can pursue her art, her friendships, her being. While we try hard not to interfere with each other’s needs when we are together—it is inevitable that togetherness is not always the most productive. It is an odd phenomenon that what seems like a lightening of the load by being together actually creates a burden through expectations.
But equally important to this endeavor: I need to find out if I can find out who I really am. Am I really an artist or a pretender? Do I have what it takes to be world-class? Can I make art that is about my view of the world and not filtered through the world-view of what art is in this moment? I am, luckily, beholden to no one. I do not have to paint “for a living.” That relieves me of one of the inevitable burdens that artists have: having to make a living. I have done that. I have worked for 50 years; saved for 50 years; and now I am going to find out. It will be fun to see how the discipline, starting next week, of structured learning helps name discover who I am and what I am capable of doing. In a few days the story will unfold! I walked 9,200 steps today.
2017.01.06 Day 7 Week 1 This marks the end of my first week in this journey of one year. I have moved from the semi-tropical climate of the Yucatan to the mid-Italian peninsular winter with temperatures ranging from -7ºC to 7ºC—a major contrast with Merida today at 33ºC. By walking fast and dressing in layers I have been able to deal with this. I have also begun to learn how to self-reflect and speak to myself on my own terms. One interesting physical reaction is my eating patterns. In Merida food is never on my mind. Here, it seems to be the opposite. I like sitting down to warm cooked meals. I suppose this could land me in some serious issues with regard to my weight. Luckily I am walking between 5-7 miles a day. This may more than compensate—since in Merida I am lucky if I walk a mile in a day!


Today I walked 11,110 steps



4 Responses
Jeff, thank you for these thoughts and observations. Many of us, if not all of us, are somewhere along our individual processes of “becoming”. Each of us engages this process in our own manner. Yours is delightful to follow, in all of its detail. I look forward to reading and following you in your process. Thank you for sharing.
Always your friend.
drj
P.S. I just finished Bakewell’s “At the Existentialist Cafe”, and I felt a change. Unsure of exactly what the change means, but I felt it. More to come. ________________________________
It is a great book. Thanks for joining my journey
Jeff, thank you for these thoughts and observations. Many of us, if not all of us, are somewhere along our individual processes of “becoming”. Each of us engages this process in our own manner. Yours is delightful to follow, in all of its detail. I look forward to reading and following you in your process. Thank you for sharing.
Always your friend.
drj
P.S. I just finished Bakewell’s “At the Existentialist Cafe”, and I felt a change. Unsure of exactly what the change means, but I felt it. More to come. ________________________________
It is a great book. Thanks for joining my journey